Well, I gotta tell you, this weekend has not been easy. I haven’t really helped to make it easier either. I had two “bad” days of eating. Maybe I should say “off-plan” though because that contains less self-judgment. It seems like being off-plan is really throwing me. I feel anxious and I’m finding it hard to handle much today, but I’m pushing myself to do what I know I need to in order to feel better.
I’m getting back on track, counting points and getting ready for my workouts for the day. This is what I know will lift me up and out of this feeling I’m having.
What I Need to Do:
- Back on point TODAY. No waiting for Monday to go back on plan. I need to make some progress, and the mind game of back-on Monday is not going to help me. I would overeat today knowing that tomorrow is D-day. I’m fighting the urge to eat for comfort. An example: It’s been a rough day for my family. Not sure what it is, but we’re all “in a mood” today. My three-and-a-half son has been pretty crabby and screechy and my husband seems tired and stressed out. I walked into the kitchen after a screeching incident, and the first thing that came into my mind was “I’ll eat [huge] a bowl of cereal!” My mood actually brightened up. “Yes! The idea of that makes me happy!” I didn’t have that cereal. (The lesson I learned this week is that I DO eat emotionally. Wow, I guess I’m slow, but I really never thought I did that!)
- Couch-to-5K with my mom followed by our ceremonial jump in the pool, fully clothed! Hey, it’s the little things. Today is the last day of the week, hence the last day to do Day 3, Week 1. I know for a fact that if I don’t do this, I will slip into “I’m-a-loser” mode. If I do it, I will feel so good because not only did I do it, I overcame this blanket of depression and did it! I can also check off Week 1 and move on to Week 2! The idea for me is that doing the exercise is great for my body, but knowing I did it is great for my mind and self confidence.
- Start the 30-Day Shred by Jillian Michaels. I purchased Level One today on Amazon’s Video on Demand. My friend, the one who is the reason I did the Trek Across Maine this year, mentioned one of Jillian’s books, and I had heard a lot previously about the Shred. We agreed that we would do it together. I thought maybe we should start tomorrow, but now I’m thinking I really need to kick myself out of this funk and do it today. There are a lot of arm movements I may not be able to do with my shoulder injury, but I will not allow that to be an excuse and will do what I can without making the injury worse. I love that you can now get workout videos, and many other videos, on Amazon immediately like that!
- Find a good yoga video on Amazon on Demand. I need to breathe, I need to meditate, I need to rid my body of this stress. Yoga, yes!
I should reiterate to myself what I have accomplished this week too. I started this blog, which is helping me focus on my diet and exercise. I hope that enough people will start reading it to make me feel accountable. I know, I know. I need to be accountable to myself. I joined Mamavation on bookieboo. That, I think, will be a great motivator for me, and I hope I can be a support for the other women on there. I hope to be in the Sistahood on that site as well. I went back on Weight Watchers after a short hiatus. I’m dedicated to it and I’m ready to lose the next 12 pounds to get very close to my goal weight of 124.
Did I mention I joined a women’s soccer league? Haven’t been to a practice or a game yet, but there is actually a league out there for women over 40! I’m super excited about it. The more different things that I actually like doing that I can find, the closer I am to having an active lifestyle. AND I’m looking forward to the Mamavation Twitter party tomorrow night! Can’t wait to see who wins!